My Horrendous Mother’s Day Weekend

This past weekend was the second Mother’s Day, I have been through, without my Mom.  My Mother was taken away from me, on July 31st, 2012 by Cancer.  She was diagnosed in May 2012, with stage 4 liver cancer, and was gone, an all too short, 3 months later.  My mother was my world, she was the only good in my life, the only one I truly cared for, and who cared for me just as much in return.  The Mexican Mother’s Day is the day before Mother’s day in the US, so the whole weekend was a constant reminder of the amazing mother that I lost.  It's sad that could not even wish my close friends and family a Happy Mother’s day.  It utterly consumes my thoughts, and I try to flee from this.  Then I had 4 other equally bad occurrences this weekend.

“And no matter what anybody says about grief and about time healing all wounds, the truth is, there are certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart stops beating and the last breath is taken.”

― Tiffanie DeBartolo

To top it all off with the proverbial ‘cherry’, these horrendous events obliterated my will power, and I ate anything I wanted for two whole days.  Never mind the fact that I was to start my first DietBet on Monday.  When I officially weighed in on Sunday, I found that I had gained 3 pounds.  By Monday morning, it was another 2 pound gain.  That makes 5lbs. total in one little bitty weekend.  I had to start my DietBet at a -2lbs.
 

On a happy note, I have survived the weekend, a little stronger for it.  If it weren’t for my Husband and a handful of close friends and family members (that didn’t cause other said occurrences), I don’t know what I would have done.  Also, I will not let this past weekend steal my focus, and now I know for future times.  I will lose the 5 pounds I gained, and I will lose a minimum of my 4% for my DietBet.  I am determined, ready, and nothing will stop me.

-Madeline